It's Been Awhile...

Well..it's been awhile...almost 2 months since I last wrote a blog. Well, truth be told it's because I was busy and going through a lot. So, as my last blog stated in November I was in the psych ward...unit whatever you want to call it. And although I didn't want to be there, and only went because I knew people would be pissed at me if I off'ed myself, I think it was imperative that I was there. After I was released I just concentrated on getting through the semester because we only had a few weeks left. I was slightly pissed at some of my grades, I got 2 B's when I thought they would be A's...but I didn't do to horrible either. C'est la vie.....I passed.
Among trying to finish the semester I found out the my dad has melanoma. He had surgery on the 27th of December to remove the cancer on his back and the nodes on his right side. He starts radiation this week I believe. I also learned that my birthmother in California had passed away. I didn't think I would be able to go to her funeral but I will be able to after all...it's the 29th of this month. In her passing away I've been dealing with intense emotions of anger and grief. There was so much I wanted to ask her..and now I won't get those answers. However, I wrote a letter to her...and I hope that after her service I will have some sense of closure. Then a few days ago I got stuck in a rut and ended up hitting a parked car..heavily damaging both vehicles. Although my car is still drivable..so that's good. I'm also glad that noone was hurt. But, it also means that I will have to get a new car before I head down to Missouri for grad school. Oh, also our pastor at church was fired all due to lies. I'm so mad and diappointed! The executive committee has twisted everything...and they have a stranglehold on the congregation. They are truly corrupt and evil. The congregation it self is not bad...just these few people with an agenda...it's not Christian. I hope they get what they deserve. I know this is not how God wants our church to be. Maybe it has to hit true rock bottom so we can rebuild....idk...it's just disheartening especially because I've gone there since I was a baby.
So...yeah...I just hope that the rest of 2011 will be better. I know we all have our trials..I guess life just sucks sometimes.
C-ya'll on the flipside.