Going Down That Road Again.....

It's one of those things that I don't want to think about. Yet sometimes there is this nagging feeling pulling at the back of my brain...just do it. Do it. It's not that I'm saying I'm going to do it tonight or anything. I just sometimes feel like a failure, I guess is a way to put it. I know all my friends, family, teachers, whatever would say, "Oh, but you have so much going for you!" Well...to some degree I do. I do have goals....and I try to remain hopeful..but sometimes it's hard. Sometimes I just wanna give up.....I wanna stop trying to please people...stop trying to be perfect.. Sometimes I just wanna disappear. Sometimes I just think about doing it. But in the end I know it's selfish and previous attempts haven't worked...and I don't inherently think I want to die or anything. Just something I think about from time to time.