Spiral

Spiral

Round and round my mind is whirling
Feels like I'm sinkin' in
Thoughts float, flicker around my mind, swirling
Trying not to let the darkness win
You see me with my off center smile
I look fine so you don't ask
I've been this way for awhile
But, you see I've hidden behind this mask
Look deep into my eyes
You may see something there
It's not a bunch of lies
The truth is I really do care
It's just lurking there kinda deep
Something I'm afraid to show
The pain I feel that I must keep
It ruminates there and some day it's gonna blow
It doesn't hurt you but it does hurt me
A slow suicide, I feel like curling up in a ball on the floor
I just need help, release...I wish it was so easy
I really don't know if I can do this anymore.